School was pretty chill today. I had an assembly, and missed an entire block of math > <
Photography is so boring. But, whatevs.


Next block, I had biology. So chill! We just made boats of tinfoil, and put them in tanks of water. After that, somebody would put pennies in it. AHHAHAHA! We had to use everything seen bellow. We did not just tape random shiz in our boat (partnered project).


A candle was lit, so when your boat went down the candle would go out too.

Our boat carried the most pennies. F*CKYEAH B| People with the most, and least sturdy boats got lollies HERPDERP. I didn't want mine, so I gave then to Lana. She likes sweets, so it was a thoughtful donation >D


TIRED g'night
-pk

Those moments when your throat dries up, you bite your lower lip as your nose burns bright red, and your vision is fogged with tears.

I felt like crying all day today. On top of the lack of sleep, and raging teenage hormones, there are certain other matters that make things worse. I went to the mall with my friend, and she said that I always look like as if the waterworks would start any minute. As any person would do, I sucked it up and slapped on a smile. "Haha. Do I?"
If rivers began to form on my cheeks, my buddy probably would avoid asking me questions like "What's wrong?" Why risk making things awkward though? It was best to keep all bodily fluids in.

The reason I've been feeling so crummy recently is . . . because I'm awkward. Although, you probably already know that. Easily voted to be one of the most awkward people in the existence of humankind! Okay, perhaps that was an exaggeration. I'm going through one of those mood swing things again where I cry uncontrollably. I don't have a tissue, dang it! High school leaves this teenage soul feeling rather dejected and unwanted. It's not that there aren't any friends in my life, but I don't get the idea that they would be my SUPER PALS! Yenno what I mean? People who I can talk to about whatever, etc. I miss k-gr5 so much.

These are the types of moment where you would seek for your friends to vent on, but I don't really have that at the moment. Kinda long distance right now. All I really want is a hug, BUT I DON'T FREAKING LIVE IN ASIA AND BITCHES BE HOMOPHOBIC.

Knowledge given to others about yourself is like handing over a gun to the enemy, but I don't even care right now. I feel so bummed out. This girl is a broken record. She has nothing interesting to say

If vocal ensemble is still open for auditions, I might go. Bad timing, my throat is killing me.

-pk

BAD EXPERIENCE

Today . . . I guess it was technically yesterday, was the first day of school. How was it? Awful. There is but one thing that can describe how I feel about being at school: Forever alone O^O God forbid that anybody from school reads this! Although, I supposed it is inevitable for at least one person to stumble across this post (and thank you for reading). Back to being socially awkward. As I've posted before, I don't share too many common interests with my lunch buddies. Although I feel the obligation to call them my friends, they don't seem like what a friend should be in my eyes. Don't get me wrong, they've treated me very nicely throughout my high school career. What bugs me is that it always feels impossible to initiate conversation. In fact, it's difficult to the point in which they shut me down as soon as I great them with "Hi". The only time I can have a decent chat with my lunch buddies, is when they're alone (and I mean this literally). During an isolated situation like this, they are forced to converse with awkward little me. I feel BAD for talking to people T____T During conversations, my "friends" often express something along the lines of having been forced to write lines! Is it that agonizing to speak with me? Alva transfered to my school, so I spoke with him during lunch. He didn't shut me down, so that was nice ""orz HS is currently a rather dull point in my life. By no means am I enjoying (most) of the people that surround me. Mind you, there are some kind folk. Suzanna's cousin seems like a nice person. Very upbeat, but she's in gr12, and so is Alva QAQ Why can't nice people be in my classes! OH! Judy is gonna be in my bio class. That should be fun.

UNDERWORKING OVERACHEIVING

If I haven't mentioned previously, I once took a public speaking course. Was it hard? No, but it did get me shaking and nervous. With the hard work came improved public speaking skills.
What does this mean? I'm less likely to use stupid pausing words (umm, like, so...) I still use them on the occasion though. Nobody is perfect, myself included. I can conjugate a sentence in my head without thinking over how to word it in a way that sounds ... well, more though out. Very important, I have the confidence to voice my opinion during class. Whether that be a good or bad thing is beyond me, but it feels good to know my ideas are out their. Easily one of the main reasons this blog exists. You and I both know that there won't always be somebody to lend an ear for your everyday adventures. Instead of killing somebody's free time, you can just type it all out.

IF IT AIN'T CUTE, PUT IT ON MUTE!

Excuse as I act as a hypocrite for a moment. I strongly believe that if you have nothing to say, keep it to yourself. Probably stupid of me to say, seeing as how I blog about stuff all the time. Probably gonna be my goal for the new school year. Back to goal setting later.

I was at work today, and some coworkers were talking about how the employee of the month didn't deserve that position. Who were they to say that _________ didn't work hard! She was training so many people over summer! Personally, I think she works very diligently and didn't deserve that unnecessary comment. Why talk BS? Just work harder >___> It really bugs me when people say they dislike a teacher when they're getting a bad mark. got 65%? Are you working hard? If not, it's YOUR fault that you're not an A student. AIYA! (Although, there are some teachers who just DISLIKE you)

Goals:
• Avoid singling out individuals, and judging VERBALLY (The mind wanders, and I can't help it)
• Be more humble. I'm a teenager, but it's no excuse to have an ego
• Be punctual.
• work efficiently
• Make more friends OTL
• balance life/prioritize
• Try to not dress like a slob everyday.
• SLEEP EARLIER
• restrain spending habits
• eat (Totally skipped dinner today. regretting. Only had soup and ice coffee LIQUIDS D8< )
• not to offer out help too easily.
• Develope MU routine that is faster. Skip the lashes?....


tired//xoxo
pk

Is it possible to be JUST friends with someone you wanna be with?
Yes. I want to be with my family and friends.

Do you think anyone has feelings for you?
As selfish as it sounds, I hope so.

What's the last thing you put in your mouth?
toothbrush

Where is your biological father right now?
Somewhere on the island.

When's the last time you screamed really loud?
last time I watched my friend play GTA really poorly

Are you a bad influence?
Sometimes. Aren't we all?

Can you honestly say you're happy right now?
I'm blissfully confused

If you could erase someone from your life who would it be?
Mister stingy

Do you currently have a hickey?
Nope.

What color are your eyes?
Dark brown

Do you have a girlfriend/boyfriend?
forever alone

What was the last thing you watched on television?
Ep.1 D.I.E. AGAIN

Will tomorrow be better than today?
Noooooooo

Would you rather fly, drive or travel by train?
I would fly into train driver.

Did you cry today?
nope

Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
Grandpa got it from China

Could you date someone taller than you?
Yes. It's kinda the norm?

Did you hug someone today?
Nobody to hug.... nobody lets me hug them.

Do you miss the way things used to be?
You mean no homework and nap time? yeah.

Is your life anything like it was a year ago?
Simply in terms of summer, yes. It was a roller coaster.

Have you ever thought about getting your nose pierced?
Yes; I'll never get one. Not my thing

If you could change your eye color would you?
Light brown.

What happened at 10:00am today?
Sleep. Maybe get waken up by phone company "Would you like a trial service pack." "No" "It's free for th-" "No"
So annoying! DO NOT WANT, OKAY?!

Do you ever get good morning texts from anyone?
;____; nope

Where is your cell phone?
on my bed

Do you think people talk about you?
Yeah. Not necessarily in a negative sense, but also not necessarily in a positive sense.

Is the last person you texted male or female?
female

Have you argued with anyone today?
Like, hardcore? No. Just petty disagreements.

Do you like your life?
Going through a slightly poopy day today.

Are you shy?
Sometimes

Do you have any summer plans yet?
Watch movie with friends.

List one of your biggest fears:
failure

Whose hoodie did you wear last?
My own OAO

Do you ever write in pencil anymore?
Very often

What are you listening to right now?
Nothing.

Have you ever liked someone older than you?
I think so.

Did you know that pickles have no calories?
That cake is a lie. Pickles contain 60 calories. Cuccumbers on the other hand only have 8.

Do you like the smell of Febreeze?
Eh.

Do you own a digital camera?
Yes. I want a new camcorder now.

Did you climb trees when you were younger?
TEEHEE! YERYER

Were you in a good mood today?
I was tired. I felt bad because my friend said I looked really bored. Then I felt guilty for not looking happier T______T Sorry, love.

Is it alright to curse in front of your parents?
Yeah. Mom just gets all "be more lady like"

What is the last non-alcoholic beverage you had?
Matcha boba

Whose bed were you on last, besides your own?
Oh, damn. So hard to remember. Probably Ashley's parents? Cause her computer is in that room.

Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months without cheating?
No doubt.

Sleep with the fan on?
Rarely. The fan heats up in the back overtime, so I try not to.

Would you kiss the person you last kissed again?
My mother? A kiss from YEARS ago. Probably not. I'm kinda old for that.

Think a lot before you fall asleep?
Yeah. keeps me from sleeping.

Do you want to see someone right now?
no

Are you highly attracted to someone right now?
Yes

Is it easier to pretend everything's okay for you?
nope. I need to rage.

If someone looked ON your bed, what would they find?
a hot mess

Was last night terrible?
No. The night before.

Have you ever snuck someone over to your house?
Everybody is welcome here.(almost)

If you could have one thing right now what would it be?
Fortune.

Do you hate it when people try to play with your hair?
Only if they have dirty hands.

Someone knocks on your window at 3am, what do you say?
"Oh #&@% !!! IT'S JUST A DREAM"

Do you find it in your heart to forgive?
No. I hold grudges. T____T

Do you ever get paranoid when someone is reading your text messages?
Nope. Nothing personal. Texts about the next bus arrival, telling me to wake up, work, etc.

Did you speak to your father today?
No.

How do you feel about girls who smoke cigarettes?
Cancerous.

If someone liked you, would you want them to tell you?
"Hey pretty thang!" JKS JKS. Let me know so I can put them out of their day dream?

Has anyone told you they never wanna lose you?
no HAHAHAH!

Would you be able to name everyone you kissed this year?
Didn't kiss anyone QAQ

How many drugs are in your system?
1 - YOUR LOVE IS MY DRUG. Yenno what? I don't get any of that, so, none.

The person who hurt you the most calls and needs you, do you go?
Ye- no

What's on your schedule for tomorrow?
TBA

Do you always answer your texts?
nope. Only ones that need replies

Do you fall for people easily?
define easily.

When is the next time you will kiss someone of the opposite sex?
Durrr..... forever alone, so . . . .

What's your current mood?
irritated.

Are you afraid of losing the last person you talked to?
MOM~ yes.

Do you think you are a good person?
Eh

Babe or baby?
Baby. Babe is eh.

When's the last time you stayed up late because you were talking to someone?
Camp.

Have you done something recently that you regret?
yeah. Looking bored TODAY!

Have you ever kissed someone who was over 21?
Mazha

Could you go the rest of your life without doing any drugs?
no.

Is it ever too late to apologize?
LOLOL Nope! It can be too late to apologize to expect acceptance though.

Do you have a secret that you've never told ANYONE?
Yeah.... wait. Never mind. I told somebody, and tried to cover it up as a LIE!

xoxo
-pk