What up my ponies. Today felt like a busy day . . . or rather a disappointing day QAQ In math class, the teacher did a homework check, and I NEVER DO MY BLOODY HOMEWORK!! UGH. So sad, but nothing I can do about it now. I'm probably getting a failing grade in math right now. I just don't feel like giving school 100% right now, which is outrageously odd. Normally, during this time of the year, I like to pretend that I'm capable of getting super good grades, and I suck up to all of my teachers. I just don't have that drive right now, and I feel so exhausted. C'mon! I'm procrastinating right now = = Overall, I just feel really disappointed in myself, because I am capable of getting As, but it's a matter of whether or not I can get my shit together in time. I also bombed a quiz in socials. Fuck, I honestly don't know what I'm doing right now, because I'm better than this! I'M GETTING BACK INTO MY DARK AGES!!!!! C'MON, GIRL!! FUCK SLEEP, STUDY, AND MAKE UP FOR IT WITH CAFFEINE >: ( Don't tell me this is bad for my health, I honestly don't know what to do anymore.
Luckily, I'm happy with the people I hang out with at school, but the real thing that's getting to me at this time of my life is school work. The amount I am given should be manageable, but I can't stay organized for shit.
Now that I'm done complaining about my stupid problems! There's this boy in my math class who says he wants to blaze (aka smoke marijuana for you anti-slang folk). I didn't hear his entire story, but the quick summary went along the lines of "I'm not happy with my life, it sucks!". Obviously, I tried explaining that drugs were a bad way of coping with unhappiness, but he said he still wants to. UGH, BOTHERS ME SO MUCH!! As if that wasn't enough, one of the school's many druggies says
"Do you have $5?"
But seriously, if you are doing drugs, smoking, or alcohol. Do some self reflecting. Is there something troubling in your life? What is it? Are you trying to avoid problems though these things? Like any drugs, they're only temporary. I was taking anti inflammatory for my eczema, but I just flared up after I finished taking my pills. Getting your head up in the clouds won't make anything change, so just try to find some type of resolve.
Why should I be told I'm not beautiful because I was born with a round face?"