We grow up being told that we are special, but we can't all be special.

You think you're special
and you refuse to conform.
No pop music or fashion trends.
You aren't the norm.
Nobody else is like you
and you are special.
Right?

You think you're so special.
but your reflection tells no lies.
A reflection of someone who loves
to despise.
A reflection of not you
but of famous
strangers.

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You are McDonald's newest product.
A chemically engineered thing
that looks kinda different,
but really, there are millions just like you.




Felling lazy
-pk

It's some of the bulkiest shit you'll see,
but everybody wants one.

When I was 9, I envied the Korean girl who had this nice pink digital camera. It was something my family couldn't afford to buy at the time, so I used a crappy film camera instead. Soon after, I got a camcorder, but the highest resolution on it was a joke; 240p. Last year, I finally got my hands on a nice little digital camera. Is it the best thing ever? No, but it's a 1/4 the size of my camcorder and half the price. Did I mention in films in 720p? Technology has clearly advanced, and become more accessible. Things once seen as luxuries are now common house hold items.

For some, the compact digi-cam just isn't enough. While sitting through an English class, I listened to my classmates as they chatter about wanting to get an SLR. In math class, I hear about how one of my classmates got an SLR for Christmas! These chunky cams are becoming increasingly popular, but are they really necessary? It seems nice to have, but your reason is "Just because" it seems like quite a waste of money.

Kudos to you if you love photography! But I feel like a lot of people just want the camera, because they want to become like photographers of image the see on tumblr . . . so they can take really good pictures of bread? I don't know.

Don't get me wrong, I would like to get one myself. The thing is, I wouldn't buy one unless I felt I truly needed it. If there was an SLR in my possession, I simply wouldn't get my money's worth out of it! The reason I enjoy my compact digi is because I am able to take snap shots throughout my day. If I wanted to capture moments, I'd be fine with all of the resources I have right now. I'd rather be living the moment instead of fumbling with a giant piece of technology.

Cost wise?

Lenses > Camera body

LOL! It's like buying toner for your printer, bro. IT'S LIKE HAVING A BABY! You have to pay more to support it than to get it.

If you have an SLR or any camera in general, please to be embarrassed of your child! I don't understand why people are embarrassed to take photos in public. I OCD when people waste money (but I waste a lot) "orz

Sorry for rambling

-pk

I woke up, and stumbled over to the washroom as I do every morning. After the tedious job of brushing my teeth, and washing my face, I returned to my room where I got dressed. While listening to my favourite morning radio station.

".... snow fall outside in the lower mainland right now..."

WHAT?! It was snowing pretty hard today. How disappointing. I don't care how pretty you think this stuff is, it's the biggest pain to walk through!

Anyhow, I think I failed my math test yesterday. Let put it this way, I don't know any vocab, concepts, or what it is that this chapter covers. The only thing I know is that it's hard, and I don't want to get out of my way to study it. Normally math comes to me pretty easy, but whatever it is that I'm learning right now, just doesn't make a lick of sense. My math grades are dropping significantly; I think I'm at 68% if not lower.

What is math good for? I don't know what you want to be when you grow up, but I don't think I'll be looking at numbers too much in my future. It's a fact that very few students will actually utilise some square root bullshit where you have to substitute x with adjgkla'jgkajfklg FUUUCK. Seriously. When I sit through a year of math class, all I see is same shit, different colours. Once you get to a grade 5 level math, I think you're done.

In that retrospect, a lot of school is simply a big waste of time. A person, like myself, can use that 85 minutes worth of time to something that they are actually passionate about. Why do we have to look at numbers all day? Let's face it, most of us won't even remember 80% of the crap we learned today (unless you actually enjoy your studies).

One of my math teachers once told my class himself, "You don't actually need most of the stuff you learn in class, it's so you can learn how to comprehend".

I think there are too many required courses. I think students should have more power when in comes to choosing what courses to take. If students had the choice to pick exactly what courses they wanted to take, then maybe they would be able to get out of school faster. However, I don't know what effects this would have on high schools and the employment of teachers. It's obvious that some required courses at the moment are more popular than others. Would teachers lose their jobs from this?

Required courses allow students to have a sample of what occupation they might want to pursue in the future, but it seems somewhat unfair for those who are very decided. I suppose it good to be a "well rounded person", but think about it as a MMORPG. You want your stats to be precise so you can have the maximum power. Sure, that fireball skill can come in handy, but you're not gonna use it often if it's only lvl.1.


LOL
"It snowed" ----> "Schools need to change"

Okay. later.
-pk

Oh man... puberty is a bitch. I'm so confused right now . . . so confused and sad.

I wish I could be their only exception, the way they are mine.

Together I wish we could be,
but if that were so my mom would disown me.

how we change ourselves so much without knowing it. The minor tweaks we make so that maybe, just maybe, we can catch the attention of someone we love. Play a game that we'd normally never even think of. Listen to music that we'd normally hate. Wear clothes that is nothing like our self.

It's funny how we change like the seasons with each new supposed "love". But what if it was always winter, and we never changed?

I feel like my words are hidden in permafrost. Even in this bitter cold, I hope spring never comes to take away my sweet melancholy.


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If you get to know me, you'll find that you can read all of my emotions off of my face. My natural expression often looks like I'm about to cry, because I'm on the verge off bawling.

学校でいる時に私が寂しすぎる（〒　∩　〒）；；

It was a good run B| Just kidding. This isn't a very fun thing to do . . . I feel like a lot of them are just people in your life. and I don't want people to know me through one tag thing, and I don't want readers to know that much about people in my family . . . LOL kinda private, and kinda stupid that I started . . . and even more stupid that I would rather document my life "orz
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HAIR DYE TIME
I'm thinking about bleaching my hair, and going lighter. During winter break, I considered picking up a box of Palty hair dye, which is a Japanese brand,and since it's an Asian brand, it's more suitable to Asian hair (some people claim). If you live in Canada, you can pick it up at most T&T Supermarkets/Osaka Markets, or at any local Asian malls.

I had to do a trade for my facebook shop this weekend, but I was 20 minutes early. I decided to drop by the nearby mall to kill some time.

After grabbing a milk tea boba in the freezing cold, I decided to have a second look at the hair products in Osaka Market. Palty usually sells for about $14, but it was one sale for $9.99! Thank goodness I waited. At first, I wasn't sure if all the colours of dye were on sale, because the sign was very specific about the colours juicy peach and caramel brown being on sale. Those colours were both very orange-y, and I wanted to go more ash tone.

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My current hair colour I is similar to the second heart ATM. After cutting off so much of my hair, I feel like I might as well botch it now by bleaching it before I dye it before I dye it.

My skin colour seems slightly tan, so this might look really bad. Did I mention the bleach I picked up was one sale too? Also $9.99 LOLOL! VANCOUVERITES, IF YOU WANT PALTY HAIR DYE, HIT OSAKA MARKET IN RICHMOND NOOOOW ... I don't actually know if they still have the sale going on right now, but it's worth checking out right? you can always grab some yummy food nearby if the sale is over.

Speaking of sales, Oakridge is having a sidewalk sale right now. I didn't catch anything I liked though. It was either still expensive, or more suitable for my see lai mom. But if you're a honger guy and you have a honger budget, go check out J2. You will be enlightened by the variety of less American fashion...? （ｖ　ｘ　△　ｘ）

My mom didn't have work today, which I why my ass happened to be at Oakridge. I hate shopping there, because everything feels too expensive ;___; I basically only went to Zellers, because I had to get a scientific calculator. Can you believe that I've already broke two during my high school career? I'm gonna be so poor when I have to use a graphing calculatooooor. Gonna break one every other month.

I couldn't help but wonder why the calculator I bought today cost so much more than the one I broke. Then I realised . . . the manual practically a whole cm thick. Who even reads manuals anymore. Everybody just picks shit up, and start to use it.

That's a freaking joke . . .


Zellers carries manga. WTF and it's so cheap. I didn't get
any, because I'm trying not to buy any for $5+


No shit it's premium. They probably aren't
good any other way!

Here's a picture of my face, cause I know you'll freaking love it. Could have used more photoshop. Note: does not offer premium quality BJs

-pk

I would trade places with a baby. Sure, as a baby I can't talk, walk, or even wipe my own ass without somebody's help, but life would be so blissful. If I were a baby, I wouldn't have to worry about school, or where my future was going. My family situation, regardless of how tragic, I wouldn't greatly affect me. Although I wouldn't want to do life over again, it would be nice to get all those hugs and kisses again.

-pk