Sorry, I've been going crazy lately!  Enjoy this cover version of my favourite Christmas jam >D
Hope you all have a good one!  I have to go to work yet again this week (That's right, on xmas day!)

kay
Time to get money
get paper
get girls all different flavours AHAHHAHAAHHAA jokes jokes.
Gotta go make cheeseburgers now.

I had a bad dream the night before that my sister had died.  I woke up crying.

On a more typical, angry note.  I bloody hate my 三婆 so fucking much.  God damn, I hate that woman with a deep passion.  My first impression of her was so bloody bad.When I first saw her, she asked me why my teeth were so yellow... are you fucking serious?  Hello to you too?  I fucking hate FOB ass Chinese immigrants.  Call me ignorant, racist, dumb.  I don't give a flaming fuck.  I hate those stupid Chinese motherfuckers.  Yes, Canada is all about multiculturalism, but I just can't relate to those dumb fucks!!!  ARGH!  I'm just venting right now. 

My view of Chinese immigrants basically just mirrors what my relatives feel about me.  So everything I'm saying right now is super mutual.

What my 三婆 probably things about me:

• she's stupid
• can't take care of herself
• rude
• spoiled
• can't speak Chinese = super stupid

What I think about her:

• She's cheap
• she's too fucking loud
• she's spoiled
• she's just terrible

I'm not pulling this shit out of my ass.  She is definitely cheap.  My 三婆 has this habit of inviting people to go out for meals, but surprise, surprise!  SHE NEVER PAYS THE BILL, AND THAT'S WHY SHE'LL INVITE YOU!  I understand that she's fresh off the boat, but c'mon!  Mooching off others on a daily? Since she's from China, she instantly speaks at max volume at every occasion.  Because of this, I hide in my room whenever she's over.  I have the option of blowing out my eardrums by having her yell at my face, or listening to my favourite music.  The decision is easy!  Don't get me started on how loud and stuck up this woman is.  When she first arrived to Canada, my parents offered her furniture, food, and other necessities.  You know what she said?  She said she didn't want old stuff >___>  and she threw it out.  Grandma, if you don't fucking want it, don't take.  At least that way, we can donate it and make good use of it.  I hate her with all my being.

Yesterday, my mom dragged me to Futureshop with 三婆 to help pick out a new camera.  I really don't know much about cameras, so I didn't even want to go.  They wanted to ask me to help translate, but they almost always have Chinese employees there, which would have made my being there pointless anyhow.  I also had work that day, and I really didn't want to be out.  Did I mention they were buying this cam for somebody in CHINA?  They could probably buy the same cameras in China = =  At least that way in has Chinese interface.  The worst fucking part is that the very next day, she wanted to return it.  My mom HAD to go back with her.  god...................................... please take my 三婆's life in the coming years.  That's probably terrible, but I hate my family.  Maybe I should just die, that was I don't have to deal with ANYTHING orz

excuse my angst, I have to go to work.

I feel so sick right now.  My stomach is killing me!  I have to go to this stupid safety meeting for work after school today... Not to say that safety is stupid, but I don't want to go to a training session = =  I feel so tired after what happened yesterday.  I'll be posting a vLog about that when I get home.  My goal is to post two videos up a week.  One casual normal vLog, and one raging rant HUR HUR HUR.  I will try my best to do this, but we all know it won't last long.  Am I right? ANYHOW, I can't say I remember my main purpose of starting up this entry orz 

I want to get a credit card ( talk about off topic)!  I was using a prepaid gift card on my PayPal account so that I could do instant transfers, but the card expired, and I can't use it anymore = =  I'll just use my mom's card so that I can do instant transfers again >D  I won't use her money though, I'M A GOOD CHILD.  I need to stop saying that LOLz  Did I mention that the weather is gorgeous today?  Well, it is.  Blue skies as far as the eye can see.  It's chilly, but it's definitely better that that cloudy crap we've been getting in recent weeks.  I kinda feel like going for a jog, but my back hurts SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much from yesterday.  Not to mention my aching knees, and raging stomach.  Perhaps it would be best to just head home a lay down.  I don't really want to feel anymore tired than I already do QQ  

UGH, hated today.  I'll fill you all in tomorrow with a casual vlog D:

AND QQ didn't get sub 1000.  UGH  gonna have to make it up tmr.
Oh yeah, why do all you Brits get the good television programing!?

I will be posting a video up on my channel soon.  I should probably link it >___>

SUB MY CHANNEL FOR UPDATESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

Hey everybody. After many days of minimal sleeping, I've decided that it's about time to post something up. I don't have any photos which will correspond to what I have to say, but I'll make a video about my adventures . . . and by adventures, I mean time spent dicking around. Actually, I haven't really been doing very much work, and that includes homework. My grades are plummeting like lead in water. Mind you, I've been gradually making efforts to get back to my old habits of doing what is needed. Sadly, this means compromising my sleep hours. I remember being warned by Alva that I should immediately sleep after school, because then you wake up at odd hours. It interferes with getting work done. That is completely true. I've found myself making 4-5 hours naps when I arrive home. This causes me to wake up around 11pm, and then I stay up till 3-4am working on any assignments I decided to not do. Just looking back at what I've been doing, I think that it's not the healthiest way of working through school.

Goal: Complete homework before sleeping. 

I'll try my best to do work on time! I'LL BE A GOOD GIRL, SANTA MAH MAN!

jks
Oh yeah! The title of this blog is about a choral festival. . . . errr. Just wait for an upcoming vlog! I don't want to type about. I HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAATE typing :) I find that I hit backspace more that any other key.

Okay.  I need to get a vid done tomorrow, seeing as how I don't have school.  No promises, because THEY ARE SO EXPENSIVE. QQ  I HAVE TO GO RECORD DON'T STOP OANDGKLAHFGJAKLGKLAJG BELL RANG BYE BYE

I have two projects due tomorrow, and I'm chatting away on MSN, and trying to learn German. WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING. OKAY, LATES. THIS CHICK NEEDS TO GET HER SHIT TOGETHS.

Shanghai Romance by Orange Carmel
I was just thinking that this songs sounds very Japanese.  I know it's Korean, but the way it's produced, doesn't it sound like Jpop?  Damn koreans and their catchy music >__>

And PAPRIKA, that's a sissy ass spice.  It seriously has no taste. . .  at least not much of one.


Oh my gah, this guy is so cuuuuuuute  I was looking at cover versions of Sistar 19's Ma Boy, and I found this video of a guy in the related vids.  Hardly any guys do covers of Korean songs, so I went ahead and clicked on it.  Man, I felt like I was watching porn, because he was topless in low light >___>;;;  I was so afraid that my mom might look over my should, and think that I'm watching something dirty.  Watch, and you'll know what I mean.  HE HAS SUCH NICE SKIN, SO JELLY.

I don't know if he's straight though . . . all my dreams are deaaaaaaaaad,  OR ARE THEY HAHAHAHAHAH.  If any of my friends are reading this, yenno what I mean. you know duh, you know duh!



Alright, I need to go study some socials bull crap.


PEACE
'cause, yenno, hippies love that shit.
-pk

You think I'm a fuck up?  Guess who raised this fuck up : /
You
That makes this fuck up your fault.
You raised a fuck up.
You fucked up.

Goddammit.  You never have anything nice to say.  Never, never, never.
Always so fucking critical.

So, apparently I'm a safety hazard according to the manager at work "orz  thank goodness I haven't been fired yet.

TO KNOW THE UNKNOWN!  Remember that song?  It was in one of them Pokemon movies... I remember recording it on VHS, but I don't even know if I have it anymore O3O;; 

Sorry, that just totally popped into my head.  On the topic of the unexpected, I stood around my usual group of friends today when I noticed Jerome stood with us as well.  He normally doesn't, but he began to explain, "If you're wondering why I'm standing here today, it's because I'm the third wheel over there."
I peer over in the direction that Jerome points to, and see a couple hugging and kissing.  After hysterically laughing at him for being a third wheel, I stop to do a double take....

"WHAT THE FUCK?"

That was my honest reaction to what I saw.  I had no intentions of being rude, but I thought they were quite the unlikely couple . . . at least, that was my take on things.  I'm not surprised that the girl is in the relationship.  I'll put it nicely, and say she's very open minded when it comes to men.  The boy, however, I would never expect him to have a girlfriend in high school.  He's not ugly, rude, or stupid.  The boy is just very quiet, and I couldn't imagine him having any interest in getting a date.  Yenno?  The kinda guy who might put his future ahead of having a fun relationship.

Asides from that, I had school lunch twice this week, and it didn't taste like crap!  Kudos to the kitchen team at school.  The lasagna was not just noodles this time o U o)b  Please season your Shepard pie a little bit more though. . . more fat or something.  The potatoes in it are so bland T____T

I remember asking if I could have the piece of lasagna that was further in, because it looked less dishevelled, but the guy said noooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.  WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE?!  GORDON RAMSEY?  THE CUSTOMER IS ALWAYS RIGHT QQ SMDSMDSMDSMDSMD  HHAHAHAHA jks.  What do you expect when the service costs $0 OAO;;

Anyhow, thanks for the flavourful lasagna.  Thasagna.

Tis all for now
- Passive Aggressive Asshole TUT

10SecondTraumas make some excellent shorts!  I just wanted everybody to go check them out, because they are desperately underrated ):  Here are some of my personal faves that I've watched.    CHECK EM OUT!

We're looking at a crescendo and a decrescendo in the quality of my school photos.  I hate my school photo this year so much.  I was actually quite happy with my one from last year, because I caked on the make up LOLOLOL.  My hair looked like crap... why is spell check underlining looked >___>;;

I tried curling it, but then it looked bad, and I did a bunch of other stuff. .  . it looked like crap, end of story.  My skin also looks a lot more tan, and I don't like tan skin.  GRR!  I'll try and convince myself to like it, but as of now, I don't find it very attractive.  I just hope I don't look super ugly for grad photos, and all that jazz.  Who am kidding, we all know I'm gonna eff it up orz

There's this year, and last year.  Poor lighting, but that's OKAY, RIGHT?!  Can you see all the wrong in my hair?  LOL

Here's a vLog I have on LIMITED, because I want to treat

my blog readers to a "special vid".  

It'll be the lost episode.  I keep scratching my elbow in the video (gross, I know).

Only afterwards did it occur to me that it may look as if I were doing something else.

There's a video of my little all you can eat adventure.  It was very painful T___T

But it was super fun at the same time.  

For anybody who is thinking about going to

all you can eat at Fish on Rice, it's really limiting.  I understand that they need to make money

by applying caps, but you get max 6 pieces of sashimi per person = = They only give you 2 hours to eat

and when it came time for placing our last order, I felt super pressed

for time, and I order a million of everything!  It pissed me off so badly when he said

"This is your last order."

(= A =  *)  You wanna die.  I will cut you.

It was all good fun though.

I'm thinking of taking social studies online.  I'm not learning in my current class.

To be completely honest, I hate that class the most!  It's full off trivial knowledge that

I don't feel will be useful to me int he future.  Politics are very boring to me >__>

Quite simply can't find it in me to enjoy talking about old white guys

and the whole shebang about how we shouldn't trust them lalalalalalalaa

TRIVIAL BULLSHIT.

I know I should vote when I'm legal, but sitting in a classroom trying to hammer this information into my head is impossible!

That's all!  Thanks, bye

I was sitting in English class today, and I was literally dozing away.  Typically, I find it very hard to sleep out of home, so I'm clearly very sleep deprived.  For your entertainment:

Trying to bake some cake  Trying to hate you.
only to get burned You want me to
scorched  go watch you on a date with your
burdened.  boyfriend?
Do you know how jealous I feel?
Grr.

My buddy Tina recently told me to watch some Running Man.  It's this Korean variety show . . .


[iSUBS & DBSKnights]RM27 (1/4) by isubs

From what I understand, it's really popular, but I haven't started watching any of it yet.  Looks funny though, so I'll be spending my potential study time on this.




I've been feeling very weak recently.  This is most likely due to the fact that I quit taking P.E. this year at school.  I hate running laps, so I jumped at the chance of dropping the course.  Excuse me for being immodest, but I was pretty good in PE >)   All at the same time, I really lacked direction . . . ANY OLD HOW, my muscles are deteriorating, so that's fun. 


Any tumblr users?  I don't use it seeing as how I have a wonderful home here on blogger, but I clearly remember seeing this one picture on tumblr that said "If you like someone for more that 4 months, you are already in love."
This came up when I was having a conversation on the phone with my good friend . . .  who lives five houses away from my own (Like dropping P.E. wasn't bad enough, won't even walk over to friends house to have a chat!).  We grazed over the legitimacy of that statement.  How would you know if you were in love?

I think I'm just infatuated, which is why I feel so stupid.

I can't think in a streamline fashion, so I'm just gonna stop HAHHAHA

Remember that marketing assignment I mentioned last time?  I started working on the real thing today, and photoshop fucking crashed on my after 2 hours of work.  Guess which idiot forgot to save ANYTHING.  Me.  Fuck my life.  I won't have to sleep tonight = =  If I'm lucky, I can make it extra ugly, and finish my midnight.  That would be the norm, so I'm gonna go SAVE the file first, and then get working OTL FMLFMLFMLFMLFMLFMLFMLFMLFML QQ


I AM SO SAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAD
GOD, I AM IN SUCH A BAD MOOD.

Don't ask about the title, it was legit the fist that that popped into my head.

I should probably go to bed right about now, but I thought it might be nice of be to type

a blog entry (:

Today was a relatively boring day, much like any other.

I totally bombed the math quiz I got this morning, and you know what?

I knew how to do everything, but I read the question wrong! Don't you hate

when that happens?  Somehow, I was stupid enough to read 7 as 40.

This time, I've managed to impress myself with this blunder!

On top of that, I got brief detention, because I wasn't paying

attention in class.  This year has started off with a hell.

It is usually pretty easy for me to pay attention, but

my attention span has shrunk in recent months. = =

ANYHOW, marketing has proven to be one of my most enjoyed courses.

This is namely because I love listening to my teachers views on

things!  Many of the opinions she share are similar, if not identical, to my own.

Apart from my love for her spontaneous rants, it's super interesting to hear facts about

the physiological aspect of marketing. 

That's one of my favourite videos that I've found on the topic of marketing.

I have an assignment that I have to finish by next day.  I'm supposed to

design an ad to sell an imaginary product, but I don't really know what to call

my product!  The idea is a light compensating lamp LOL!  I stole the idea

from the new Samsung Galaxy phone.  I heard on the radio that the screen would

not be battery draining, because it would adjust in brightness according to external brightness.

 

That is NOT my assignment, I was just bored, and though I would practice my photoshop

skills.  It was interesting, because I only used two layers =3=

The funny thing is, this other guy in my class said he picked the idea first - -

Now hear this, I clearly remember saying it first, but I didn't make a big deal out of it,

because I managed to propose it first anyways!

Fist come, first serve, my lovelies.

After class, I went to grab some ketchup in the cafeteria, when I suddenly heard

a familiar voice.  Why, it was le Sern!  I thought she wouldn't come visit me at school

today, because she was sick.

(.... wtf.  I was drinking water, and the cup totally missed my mouth OTL)

I was ecstatic to see her though.  It felt like ages since I last saw her.

That's not right, I saw her yesterday, but I don't believe we have spoken in a long while.

You know what's bizarre?  I label the girl as a best friend, and yet

she's the one friend who I always censor myself in front of... It kinda pissesme off,

because I don't know why.   It would piss me off even more if she was reading this

SOOOOOOOOOOOOO....

I hope you're not reading this LOLOLOLL

  

Dear creeper in my web design class, please refrain from doing THAT again!

I'm flattered that you would say hi, but stay out of my folder, yeah?

 

Angry bird cakes at T&T!  I took a pic, and the lady said

no pics = = free advertisement, people!

why would you say no pics?!

 

H&M opening in metrotown October 13th at noon!

Here's the progress thus far!

-pk

What up my ponies. Today felt like a busy day . . . or rather a disappointing day QAQ In math class, the teacher did a homework check, and I NEVER DO MY BLOODY HOMEWORK!! UGH. So sad, but nothing I can do about it now. I'm probably getting a failing grade in math right now. I just don't feel like giving school 100% right now, which is outrageously odd. Normally, during this time of the year, I like to pretend that I'm capable of getting super good grades, and I suck up to all of my teachers. I just don't have that drive right now, and I feel so exhausted. C'mon! I'm procrastinating right now = =  Overall, I just feel really disappointed in myself, because I am capable of getting As, but it's a matter of whether or not I can get my shit together in time.  I also bombed a quiz in socials.  Fuck, I honestly don't know what I'm doing right now, because I'm better than this!  I'M GETTING BACK INTO MY DARK AGES!!!!!  C'MON, GIRL!!  FUCK SLEEP, STUDY, AND MAKE UP FOR IT WITH CAFFEINE >: (  Don't tell me this is bad for my health, I honestly don't know what to do anymore.

Luckily, I'm happy with the people I hang out with at school, but the real thing that's getting to me at this time of my life is school work.  The amount I am given should be manageable, but I can't stay organized for shit.

Now that I'm done complaining about my stupid problems!  There's this boy in my math class who says he wants to blaze (aka smoke marijuana for you anti-slang folk).  I didn't hear his entire story, but the quick summary went along the lines of "I'm not happy with my life, it sucks!".  Obviously, I tried explaining that drugs were a bad way of coping with unhappiness, but he said he still wants to.  UGH, BOTHERS ME SO MUCH!! As if that wasn't enough, one of the school's many druggies says

"Do you have $5?"

It's just my luck that she was sitting next to me.  Don't get me wrong, I don't mind the girl.  What bothered me was the simple fact that she was getting in the way of my agenda.  I did not want to have another person in my life turn to drugs.  She debated that it's not technically addicting, so it's not hardly as bad as tobacco.  True, however, if you're depressed, you'll most likely be trying to seeks some sense of pleasure/happiness from marijuana.  I've never done marijuana in my life, but I would imagine that you would need more and more skunk to achieve that high.  Gradually, a person could spend exponential amounts of money on trying to feel good.  Goddamn, it's like paying for masturbation. Jizzing in your pants will not solve your real life problems, so go deal AND GET REAL AHHAHAHAHAHAHA rhymes - U -


But seriously, if you are doing drugs, smoking, or alcohol.  Do some self reflecting.  Is there something troubling in your life?  What is it?  Are you trying to avoid problems though these things?  Like any drugs, they're only temporary.  I was taking anti inflammatory for my eczema, but I just flared up after I finished taking my pills.  Getting your head up in the clouds won't make anything change, so just try to find some type of resolve.

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I dyed my hair black today!

I'm surprised my mom actually let me come close to hair dye!  She's been nagging me for the longest time to stay away from it, because recently my allergies have been really, really bad T A T;;

It so weird, because my I had no reaction to hair dye before!!!!!!!! AIYA

YAY!  Shitty webcam picture for your reference!  AHAHA!  Oh my god, I practically have no eyebrows.  It's probably due to the fact that I pick at them all of the time with my tweezers and scissors. Angry Asian eyebrows, gotta have 'em. ( 'A ` ;;)

On the topic of eyebrows, it looks so damn ugly when girls pencil in sharpie in their eyebrows.  I know you guys all fucking love Michelle Phan (nothing wrong with her at all), but when she says "define your eyebrows", she probably doesn't mean "take the blackest eyeliner you have, and try your best to recreate Shenaynay's signature brows."  =  =  By no means am I trying to say that I have perfect brows, because I obviously don't have any, but GIIIIIIIIIIRL, YOU LOOK LIKE YOU DREW A DAMN DIAGRAM OF K2 ON YOUR FACE.

I feel sorta like a hypocrite since my eyebrows are slowly getting more angry looking... but normally they're pretty faded, so the arch does rape your attention span.  It's bloody 1am, and I am so bored, so enjoy the following ""orz

 

*annual cannot write for shit

90% of the stuff I captioned in pure BS, so please, if you have X eyebrows

and you feel offended. . . .

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TOO FUCKING BAD, GO GROW SOME BALLS

OR GET YOUR EYEBROWS THREADED, BECAUSE

THEY ARE REALLY CAPTIVATING . . . and you're beautiful : )

and you touch my tingle.  Jokes.

In all seriousness, if you feel like I'm being judgemental,

you can go ahead and think I'm a close minded bitch.

I was watching this vid by XiaXue, and in the beginning, she addresses some

comments regarding her views on beauty.

In her last video, XiaXue said 

moon shaped faces are

UNFORTUNATE

This obviously offended a bunch of people.  One girl left the

following comment:

"I do like you and your videos, but I think the moon-face thing is a little much personally. I have a moon-shaped face naturally. However, unlike obesity, dandruff, acne or hair, it isn't something I can prevent or control. I was born with it. And I don't think there is anything wrong with liking my face. I'm in college, so it's not like I can drop down thousands of dollars to fix it anyways.
Why should I be told I'm not beautiful because I was born with a round face?"

Her argument is basically anything you can't control shouldn't be judged = =

What kind of shit college are you going to?  I personally think it's fair

to say that something your are born with can be unattractive.

How would there be two ends of the spectrum if everybody was

"beautiful"?  People can be born with ugly features

and traits, and that's just the way things are.  I have the world's

shittiest skin, and my body type isn't that hot either, but whether or not I am

pretty is subjective.  There's also the argument that it's not nice to judge, end of story.

Perhaps people aren't being judgmental, maybe they are just stating

their preferences for physical features.  Arguably, you can say this is still judging,

BUT IT'S NATURAL TO DO THIS.  HUMANS

HAVE MINDS THAT JUST NEED TO CATEGORIZE CRAP.

"This is nice, that's ugly, I need more of those . . ."

We don't look at everything and think

*cricket*

Stop taking stuff so personally.  Not everybody is going to like your face or my face.

 

Totally random ^ hazelnut spread.  looks so pretty : )

-PKZORZ

Well, not really.  Just letting everybody know that I will (hopefully) have a new video up soon!  There's just a from the upcoming video.  Yay!

Anyhow, I desperately want to dye my hair back to black.  It will mark a new chapter in my teenage life LOL!  I know, it sounds super cliche, but honestly, in retrospect, lopping off my hair and dying was really symbolic for me.  It was a result of my midlife crisis.
I don't think I'm even close to being old enough to experience one（　； ’∩‘）>  Regardless, went through some hormonal madness, and emotional distress, so I think dying my hair could be part of the "healing process".

Thanks to all of my fellow followers!
Too tired to carry on this night
-pk

Before I get the the ELF stuff, I got two books in the mail today!

F in Exams The very best Totally Wrong Test Answers

and

5 Very Good Reasons To Punch a Dolphin in the Mouth

From my selection of books, you can clearly tell I'm an intellect　(ﾉ￣д￣)ﾉ　　jks

ELF Haul

 

 I bought two concealers (spice, toffee) and an all over cover stick(toffee)

My skis is obviously not that tan, but I want

to use these for contouring my face.  Espcially

my flat Asian noooooooose.  I think that it will be easier to

use cream vs powder to contour.

$1/each

 

I also snagged this blush and bronzer palette.  I haven't even been

blush and bronzer recently, so I really bought this because I though it looked

pretty in the packaging! "orz  But I suppose it would be a lot more 

convenient to bring this for on the go （;;´∀｀）

$3

 

This is one of ELF's new products, The wrinkle refiner, so I though I would try it out.

I do not like it

This is supposed to fill in fine lines and such for better application of 

foundation.  I'm only a teenager, so I don't really have a big issue

regarding wrinkles, however, I thought this might best for better

application of concealer under the eyes.  After twisting the tube a million

times for the product came out, I applied it to my face with hopes of some 

amazing improvement to how my concealer would look.  I don't know if I did it wrong,

But I went ahead to put on my concealer, and the product began to flake off . . .

I don't know if I did something wrong, because all the reviews on ELF are 5 stars.

Anyhow, it looked so bad, I removed it.  I'll give it another try, but so far, it's not winning my heart

$3

 

Repurchased a waterproof eyeliner pen (black) because the tip on the 

pen I bought before is all feathered out.  I don't know if I closed the 

cap at an odd angle, but I figured it wouldn't hurt to buy a new one.

Then I bought a shimmering pencil in twinkle teal.

on the website, it looks like this nice electric blue, which I though might 

look nice on the bottom lash line, but I got it, and it looked darker than

I would have liked it.

$1/each

  

I ordered a brightening eye colour palette in Rocker.  I already have it, so I might

give it to a friend or something, if not I'll just sell it to some LG in the area . . . >D

I also got a single eyeshadow from the studio line in charcoal. 

$1, $3

 

Sadly, Charcoal came in the mail like this! AWWWWWWW ( T ^ T)

 

I also bought a back up of lipstick in nostalgic.  It's a nude colour

which I really like.  If you have a really intense coloured

lip colour, you can tone in down with a nude lipstick!

$1

 

Super Glossy Lip Shine SPF15 in Strawberry, Pink Pop and Party Peach.

I just love how affordable ELF glosses are, so I just added them to the cart

purely on a whim.

$1/each

 

Then I got a Hypershine Lipgloss in Honey as a gift.

That's my new swaaaaaaaaag

-pk

As a follow up to yesterdays post, I got the boot from Link Crew.  I was going to participate in this program where seniors "help" freshmen, but I missed this training session yesterday because I was caught up at work.  Today, I rushed my ass home from work, then to the community centre only to be told the word "No"

You see, I asked if there was any way I could possibly make up missing training.  Low and behold, I missed one of the key training sessions = =  Thanks email.  THEMAIL  JKS, FUCK YOU EMAIL  FUCK YOU IN THE ASS.

After doing a half assed job of trying to convince the teachers to keep me in, I just took their answer up the ass and left somewhat teary eyed.  It made sense to me that they wouldn't want me in.  If I can't manage myself to be at the training sessions now, what would it be like to have me be in link crew in the future?

While I was at  work today, I asked one of my coworkers if she wanted to switch with me (she was off at 1pm).

"Sorry, but we all have to make sacrifices!"

I suppose we do -  A  - //


While walking home in all my rejected glory, I tried to justify what just happened.

1. First, I tried to convince myself that they would be losing a wonderful asset *hair flip* 
2. I reminded myself of how much I utterly detested link crew as a freshman, because it forced to to get up early in the morning when every other student was allowed to sleep in. 
3. Recollected memories of how commercial all of the link leaders were, and from this it dawned on me that I might just be a little bit too bitchy to be fit for the role of a leader. 
4. there was a time when I once believed that link crew was a waste of time, and had few long term     benefits for students.  
5. The only true bonding experience derived from LC were from kids sharing a mutual dislike for GETTING UP EARLY.
6. Falsely advertise what to expect in high school.

Yeah . . .  Pretty upset, but I'm done raging.  Okay, HOPE LC PEOPLE DON'T FUCKING HATE ME :)
MAYBE THE HATE IS MUTUAL?

Shiet. Seriously, I feel like I don't have any reliable friends at school. Actually, that's not the case. The problem is my deficiency in the amount of close friends I have.

I joined link crew at my school, which is program where the seniors try and make the freshmen feel welcome. I'm not going to elaborate too much on my opinion of this program as of now, BUT SINCE WE GET CONTACTED BY EMAIL, I NEVER FUCKING KNOW WHEN THE MEETINGS ARE. PMO. I can not begin to express how much I bloody hate email. It's one of the worst forms of communications I know. Although you get the message, it's mandatory that you go out of your own way to check messages.

You know how important checking my email is to me?
It fucking isn't.

I think in this day and age, it would make an awful lot of sense for teachers to have twitter/facebook pages accounts. When it comes to education, it should be important that educators find modern methods of reaching students. Why should we stick with obsolete methods when modern means of networking are free and effective? I'm going to have to call the school tomorrow during my break, because I just saw the email regarding today's training session. There's another one tomorrow 1-6, but I have work from 7-3. The email was sent out on Aug 28 which was already late for me to book the day off for work >___>;; It's always a pain in the ass to try and find coworkers to take your shift.

Proof I have no friends LOOL Inspired by Yowayowa, half the grace.

-pk

THREADBANGER IS BACK ON YOUTUBE! :'D makes me so happy. If you don't know about Threadbanger, it's all about the DIY!

I'm going to share some random pictures to compensate for my away-ness. My goal is to blog more when I get back to school. During summer, all I want to do is enjoy the sunshine, but during the shitty Canadian whether of the school year, it's easier to do these online things.

Meet Ellie the spider

Meet Asshole McLeafblower

Asshole McLeafblower wrecked Ellie's home. Stupid Asshole McLeafblower
*shakes head in disappointment*

Attempted a morning jog. Quickly found I was dehydrated and
out of shape

I have a deep love for street signs.
steal me one. Just kidding, please don't.


It seems very commercial to have
seasonal things out 2 months early


Discovered them adding the final touches at 8 in the morning.


It matches. Discovered my love for bagels over summer. So good!

-pk

I apologize in advance for complaining about the parental unit again.

My mom is getting on my nerves again. I can't emphasize how much I think she says unnecessary things. She's always telling me thing that = "You are a disappointment". Like most people, I don't like going to the doctors. My mom keeps questioning why I "Don't trust doctors". I have 3 reasons

• Usually use unnatural drugs - Although drugs offer temporary relief, in the long run, they probably weaken the human body. However, I'll take meds if I feel like no home remedies will fix me.
• My doc gives me the impression that he just wants to get paid. My doctor is a fucking asshole, and he's too fucking happy all the time. He's seems like the type of guy who is chipper all the time for no goddamn reason. On top of that, he keeps commenting on my sisters first name, Ferlynn (which is read as fair-uh-lin, not fur-lin). It's not super common, but it's not particularly pretentious = = He kept spewing bullshit about how she will get bullied for having that name. Seriously, what the fuck? At least her name isn't L-a (Ledasha).
• It's a pain to leave the house for an hour to get 5 minutes of advice. Seriously, there's practically nothing to say each time I go to the doctors. Maybe it's because I'm lucky enough to not have many problems, but it's like I'm going there for nothing =3=

My mom also has a habit of saying I'm just like my grandpa, who she deeply hates. Tip to parents around the world, DON'T FUCKING INDIRECTLY SAY "I HATE YOUR DIRTY MONKEY ASS, YOU'RE JUST LIKE [insert identity with negative connotation]" WHENEVER YOU'RE HAVING A SHIT TIME WITH YOUR CHILD, 'KAY? Goddam. This is why I can't respect my mother, because she never respects me.

NOTE TO PARENTS: A s my friend has said before, if you feel that your kid's performance is sub par, that's your failure as a parent. In a sense, your child is an appendage of your person. If you knock something over with your right arm, you don't start yelling at your arm; It doesn't have an identity. You blame yourself because you control it. Although a child technically does have an identity, they will act based on the values they are taught.

Another thing that irritates me, she thinks I've got what it takes to get a scholarship. I'm not fucking getting one. I know she loves me, and wants me to be successful (which I'm somewhat skeptical of, because I think she's just living her life through me), but we have to be realistic: I'm just not that smart. My grades are decent at most, but I'm not even hitting 90%+ for my courses. It's just so fucking stressful and shitfilled for her to think that I can. I don't want her to have these expectations for me. They aren't flattering, and just remind me of how I'm shit. I know for a fact that I'll have to pay my way through post secondary, and that's assuming I'll get in. To be honest, I really don't want to have these pressures in my life. Regardless of whether my mom knows it or not, I live in the present. I've never been the type to plan far ahead to the future.

rant over

time to sleep

My mom found one of my old masterpieces. Nothing particularly impressive, but I'll always remember this project from preschool. From what I can piece together out of my memory, kids were told to sit at a table where craft supplies were prepared, and for whatever stupid reason, I sat myself down at a table nobody else sat at. It didn't take long before the laughter of other kids ate away at me, and I started to cry. Then again, I've always been the type to cry easily; That's just who I am. The teachers asked if I wanted to sit at a different table, but I stuck to my gun (because that's also who I am, stubborn). Of course, I eventually gave in and moved "orz

Does anybody else own their childhood artworks?
I'd love to see them!

Tired
-pk =3=

Long time no blog, eh? Before you continue reading my entry, I'd just like to remind you that I MYSELF AM A PRETTY STUCK UP PERSON. Very much a "I'mma let chu finish . . ." type of gal, but

Recently I've noticed a trend in the personalities of siblings. The younger sibling is almost always brattier and more stuck up. Of course, I don't meant that this always holds true, but it does seem to be reoccurring. After speculating this idea, I began to think about why this may be:

1. Younger sibling is being a bitch because their older sibling bullied them

That's a thing, right? Acting with a vengeance as if you were making up for something. Kind of like people who were sexually assaulted as children. They tend to be more likely to grow up as sex offenders themselves. If your older brother or sister always bullied you, maybe you would feel the need to abuse those around you, because you feel that it's normal and acceptable to inflict pain.

2. Younger sibling was always fed very strong opinions as a child

I know a lot of people who just sponge up things they are told, and stick to them. Form my perspective, this particular species of people rarely seem to form their own opinions; Sheep.
Say for example person X grows up constantly being told that . . . I don't know, "People who drink coke are disgusting pigs." These kids might grow up feeling better than anybody who drink cola. From this, you formulate a condescending bitch with a chronic bitch face.

3. You were a neglected child

Your parents didn't love you as a kid, and thus you hate everybody and everything else. Everything pisses you off. You are filled with piss. You are a jar of piss. You are piss. Nothing makes you happy. Mainstream music? Stupid! Reality TV? Go home? Follow trends? Puh-leez! Laughing? Overrated! People? Gross! Breathing? Get away from me! Life? Stop it.

4. You're a fucking hipster

You tea loving, SLR hugging, underground adoring sluts! Those are just stereotypes, but to me, "hipster" can be somewhat of an abstract idea OTL Apparently people try to be hipsters now a day, which I really don't understand. Based of the definitions that urban dictionary offers, it means your a jobless bloke who loves cheap beer. I don't know, I guess that's what kids my generation love. ANYWAYS, there's probably a greater chance of you becoming a stuck up hipster if your a younger child, because you feel the need to differentiate yourself from your older sibling.


OKAY, THAT'S MY LITTLE RANT FOR TODAY! NEED NACHO CHIPS NOW, BYEEEEEEE
-le pk

I was browsing around on the F21 website, and I noticed they started taking paypal! All my wildest dreams have come true. I don't own a credit card, so paypal makes shopping on this site a lot easier. Normally, I would have to buy a gift card to shop online, so I'm so stoked that F21 has decided to implement the option of paypal.

Tis all. Just wanted to let anybody who cared know, because I AM SO FREAKING HAPPY THAT I DON'T HAVE TO WALK A MILE TO PAY FOR AN ORDER ONLINE >D YEAAAAAAAAAAH

-PK

Hello my lovelies. Long time no blog. My schedule has been kept . . . mildly occupied seeing as how I signed myself up for summer school. FYI, in case you don't remember from my vlogs, I'm not taking a remedial course, I'm taking a completion. This means I'm trying to get myself ahead of the game >D Honestly, I don't understand how my friend can be so motivated about getting an education. I'm not trying to promote the idea of being a lazy bum, or dropping out of school, but being serious just seems like such a drag. Although school achievements can look good on your resume, are they worth an arm and a leg? Should I lose my stress free childhood over a piece of paper? From what I know about myself, I don't think I'll ever be recognized for being an amazing academic. I can guarantee that my mother wants me to conform with societies standards to take part in a higher education. The thing is, I don't know how far that will take me. Will an expensive sheet of paper guarantee me a labour free job? No. Thinking about it, I don't have an option as to whether or not I want to go to post secondary.

OK, SUPER OFF TOPIC.

Summer school has been alright all in all. Mind you, I can't get 60% of the concepts over my head, but that's a otay. As long as I pass.... ahaha OTL For some reason, this summer has felt super cold. REALLY COLD. Seriously, I feel like I should be melting right now, not trying to keep mucus from dribbling out of my nose.

I'm way to lazy transfer pics from my cam to my computer right now, so you can enjoy some picture from last week OHOHOHOHOHO!


p.s. I HATE YOU SO FREAKIN' MUCH!!! WHY DO YOU HAVE TO BE SO YOU?!

SO MUCH CHATTER
-PK

Omnomnomnom. These pictures are actually from June 29th (: It was the last day of school, and my friends and I just picked up our report cards. Surprisingly, I didn't get any Cs! OHOHOHO Anyhow, to celebrate the ending of a long year, we decided to get together at Trocodera! We got there pretty early, around 11am, so the place was empty.
Obviously, the food took a little bit of time to reach our tables, but I wasn't to stingy about waiting for it. However, my friend's little sister (who looks about 5) became a little grumpy. My friend, Tina, said "Drink water, it tastes good." I chuckled at what she said and began to mock her. An and I drank our water while saying "The clarity of the water is amazing, and there's this crisp undertone to it!"

The young girl didn't seem to be too impressed, so we changed tactics. In the end, we ordered a little side dish. Deep fried food is always good, so we ordered some zucchini sticks. The five year old only ate the deep fried batter, and left the zucchini for whoever took interest.

(Excuse my crappy food photography. I totally took pics of everything after I ate half of it OTL)

Anyways! Being hardly old enough to drive, I'm not picky about food service, so I was impressed with the place :P Maybe a little bit pricey for a teenage wallet, but it beats the typical sushi/fast food! To be honest, I didn't know what half the things on the menu were, but my friend An, who was sitting right next to me, was able to tell me what everything on the menu was! With that, I decided to order mousaka. It's kinda like Shepard's pie with eggplant. That's what I would compare it to! Super yummy though. It came with a side of salad and some bread.

I would recommend the mousaka, and lamb (oooooohh, the lamb ♥)
Lemon chicken? It was a little dry D:


I was pleasantly surprised when we were brought crayons and colouring sheets for the youngster. Funniest part? I was joking with An about how mousaka sounds an awful lot like Musafa. Guess who was on the colouring sheet! NYAHAHAHHAHAHA

Mom says I have too many shoes. I still want more ;___;

-pk

My lord, my mom is giving me shit how I dye my hair and wear make-up yet again. Whether my obsession be a result of low self esteem or for the sake of self expression, cosmetics are something that I take interest in. My mom is your typical Asian parent who has absolutely no appreciation for creativity. Any form of art besides realism or playing a band instrument is not considered art at all. Think outside of the box? Fuck that, conform with everybody else or become a failure.

Although I'm entirely aware of the fact that my parents have gone through hell for my sake, I simply cannot comply with what my mom says. In my eyes, she is incredibly self conscious. She'll embarrass herself to score a deal at the supermarket, but generally, she won't do anything out of the ordinary. To put it quite bluntly, she's a robot. It may be our financial situation that pushes her to be so boring, but it's just that which convinces me to deny what she says. I can't imagine any emotion behind her words. It's just chatter from a pre-recorded machine playing back into my ears. I'm not hurting anybody by ignoring them.

That's what I think.

This might make me a terrible child, but I think my parents are . . . bad parents. They give me the necessities in life (A roof over my head, food to eat, and clothes on my back), however, I don't know any of them personally, and if they died, it kinda be like I lost my goldfish or something. I know, I know, it sounds like I'm just being angsty and what not, but I've felt this way for the longest time.

Personally, I don't think parents should enforce things by saying/doing the same thing over and over again. It's like using a pencil. Lots of writing will eventually lead the pencil to become dull, and nothing can be produced.
Parents should also stop labelling their kids with: Lazy, just like your dad, stupid, etc.
BECAUSE ACCORDING TO STUDIES, THAT TELLS YOUR ASSHOLE CHILD THOSE ARE YOUR EXPECTATIONS OF THEM!!!! SO STFU, AND TELL THEM HOW THEY CAN FIX IT, RATHER THAN CALLING THEM A DUMBASS? YEAH?! TY.

I don't want kids. Is their some kind of surgery you can get so you can become infertile? I need that. I can't stand myself, no babies please.